The moon followed Collette as she drove through the dark
night. It was as if it was spying on her, watching her every move as
she drove towards Mark's hotel room. She drove slowly, her mind
spinning. Why was there a contract out on her life and who was this
woman to want it to happen? Was it something that she had done or
something that she was going to do? Could it be a preemptive strike
against her that prompted the attempt on her life?
She sighed.
The Holiday Inn appeared before her with the highway
just past. She thought briefly of just jumping onto the ribbon of
road and drive until the sun came up. The idea appealed to her and a
small smile crept onto her face. If only.
If only. How many times had she said those two
words.
And as she pulled the car in the half-full parking
lot of the hotel the past came unbridled into her thoughts.
* * * * *
The water lapped against the shore in a melodic
whisper. Pinpoints of light were smiling down on Collette as she lay on
her back staring into eternity. Her fingers were intertwined with
the fingers of her fiance, with her left leg draped over his right
thigh. And she was smiling as she listened to his deep voice,
"I have never been happier."
"Really?" She was teasing him, she knew how he felt. He
had never been one to shy away from his emotions, always willing to share
how he felt, the consequences be damned. It was one of his strength and
she loved him for it.
She could hear his smile,
"yes. And you know what else?"
"What?"
"I love making you
happy."
And she knew he did. He
seemed to unconsciously accept her suggestions as his own, always bending
to her will, but never breaking. He was a solid tree that could sway
in the forceful gale of a hurricane only to remain standing and strong
when the storm had passed. She ran her thumb over his knuckles and
replied in the darkness, "you do make me happy."
She
could hear him breathing and feel his chest rising and falling next to
her. The moon disappeared behind a stray cloud making the dark night
seem even darker. They held each other softly, listening to the
water lap the shore and feeling content just to be wrapped in each other's
warm thoughts and soft hands. "You really do," she
mouthed, no sound spilling from her throat.
* * * * *
Stop it!
Her mind shouted at her, commanding her to drop her thoughts and to
concentrate on retrieving Mark's suitcase. Stop it, the words came
again, stop it now. Do you want to sit in the parking lot with your
face in your palms crying as the past rushes through your thoughts,
robbing you of your reason? Do you? Then stop it.
No, she thought as a frown furrowed her brow and her dark eyes moistened,
I don't.
But as she parked
the car the past came unhindered and the tears did fall.
*
* * * *
She took a step, a big
step. Sitting with her knees crossed, her feet bouncing nervously
she spoke the words that changed her life. Her voice trembled,
"I want to hurt you."
Finally. After
six years of subdued jokes about her desire to inflict pain she finally
was able to mouth the words, to bluntly say what it was she desired.
No, desired was not the word. Need. Need was the way to
describe how she felt. She needed to hurt him, but more importantly,
she needed him to accept this last, tangible part of her soul. She
had thrown caution to the wolves and had bared the deepest secret of her
being to him in the hopes that he would not crush that part of her beneath
his heel, that instead he would accept this part of her as readily and
with as much love as he accepted the rest of her. She needed to hurt
him and she needed him to both accept and understand that need.
He could deny her nothing. "Okay."
So
simple his acceptance and so earth-shattering that her feet fell apart and
her eyes moistened. She croaked a tender, "thank
you." And her heart leapt. She had bared herself to him,
revealing that last hidden piece of herself that she had kept hidden since
her first adolescent foray into pain that she had experienced while
experimenting with the boy that had lived across from her. She had
hit that seventeen year old boy and when he cried she had had to run home
and masturbate into a furious orgasm that had made her whole body seem
like an omnipotent stream of energy. Since that day she knew what
she was but had been unable to reveal the depths of her desires.
Until today.
Now
she had revealed herself and that revelation had led into a joy that she
had never felt. She had steeled up the courage to open that last
hidden refuge from her fiance and he had accepted that as easily as he
had accepted the rest of her. Each time a quirk of hers had been
revealed he had reveled in it. He had cried with her when she had
confessed that she just couldn't sleep without the stuffed bear that had
been the last gift her father had bought her before he had died and he had
laughed joyously at the amusing look on her face when she had admitted how
she just wouldn't eat lima beans in any form.
"They're icky," she had said and her face had contorted into an
almost painful sneer. Her head shook as the memory of the awful
taste ran through her mind.
And he had laughed.
Not at her, he had never done that, but with her. Sharing with her
another aspect of that part of her that made her who she was, the woman he
loved more that life itself. He had said to her that he would
willingly give up his life for her and when he had spoken the words she
knew that they were not just words, that the truth in them was as real as
anything she could taste, touch, hear or smell.
She looked into his eyes, her fingers running tenderly over the knuckles
of his hands, and said simply, "I love you."
"I know."
The
two of them were sitting at the small table that sat in the kitchen
nook. Collette's feet were firmly planted on the ground, as if she had
prepared to run from the room if her feelings had been hurt. Her fiance
stood up and crossed the kitchen. He opened the drawer next to the
sink and pulled out a blue spatula. Smiling he turned back to her,
"will this work?"
She shook her head in
amazement, "oh, yes." Her voice was almost a choked sob of
elated bliss.
"Here?"
"Please."
"How do you want me?"
He could not deny her. It was her fantasy, what she needed, and he
wanted it to be perfect. He wanted her to look back and remember
that first time as a time of perfection that would bring a smile to her
lips no matter where the memory struck. He could not deny her and he
would not.
"Naked.
Hands and knees." Her words were abrupt. It was as if she was
afraid of them, that uttering the words would chase away the reality of
the fantasy as a shining light chased away the childhood monsters that
lurked in the dark closets and under the small beds. But they didn't
erase the fantasy. Instead they progressed it into reality. Like a
caterpillar into a butterfly the uttering of her needs transformed her
future into something more beautiful than it had been.
She was complete.
She watched as he stripped.
He dropped the shorts and underwear he had been wearing in one deft motion
and stood naked before her. With a wry grin on his face he crossed
the kitchen and placed the spatula in her hand, "for you," he
said. He took one step back and spun around. He crouched and
then lowered himself further to the ground until he was on his hands and
knees, his ass towards her, awaiting the first swipe against his body that
would mark the beginning of her fantasies realization.
He heard her stand up and when she was standing next to him she asked,
"are you sure?"
He
nodded, afraid of his own voice.
Collette
hefted the spatula and slapped his naked ass. The retort was as loud
as a gunshot in the small kitchen and when her fiance rocked forward and
gasped in pain her pussy became damp. By the time she finished an even twenty
slaps against his upturned ass, her pussy was soaked. "Thank
you," she breathed throatily.
His ass was
red. She had not deceived either of them by pulling the blows and
his ass was screaming in pain and burning with the heat of her blows. He
turned his head to look up at her. His eyes were moist and he was on
the verge of tears. Those tears melted away when he looked into her
dark eyes. Her face was a mask of pleasure, her eyes glowing
brightly. She had been entirely honest when she had spoken of her
need and by the look on her face he could read that truth. She had
enjoyed that more than she had stated and that pleasure was as evident as
the moon on a cloudless night.
When he
spoke his voice was weak, "you are welcome." He had not
enjoyed the spanking but he did enjoy the look on her face and the shining
of her eyes.
Collette held
her hand to him and he took it. She pulled him to his feet and
pulled him behind her into the bedroom. She dropped onto the bed and
spread her legs wide, "eat me," she hissed.
He climbed between her thighs and with the first stroke of his tongue
against her clit she came. Her hips bucked against his face and her
fingers dug into the sheets of the bed, pulling the fabric into a ball in
her moist hands. She screamed loudly as her body exploded in
pleasure and when her pleasure passed and her breathing returned to normal
she commanded, "eat me again."
And he
did. He ate her dripping sex until she came twice more. Her
moans filled the room and the sounds spurred his cock into
turgidity. He was hard and feeling the same need that she had felt,
a need that reverberated throughout his body. He needed to feel her
sex enveloping his cock. Needed to feel the pleasure of orgasm rack
his body as her orgasms had raced through her body. All he could do
was whisper, "please."
"Please what?" Collette taunted him, her voice light and
raspy.
"Please, may I
come?" It was so easy for him to fall into a submissive role
that when he realized what he asked his face fell in comprehension.
She had stated her desire to him and in turn had come to realize a deeper
part of his own psyche. He needed her to take control as much as she
needed to take it. She had been honest when she had confessed her
desire to him and now he realized that there was a part of him that needed
her to have control and to be as honest to her as she had been to him, he
whispered, "control me."
She paused,
looking down at him as he knelt between her parted thighs. "What did
you say?" Her voice was full of incredulity. Had she heard him
right? Had that last piece of herself that she had finally
revealed been the catalyst in his own mind that made him reveal a deeper
part of himself?
"Control me,"
he repeated softly.
She nodded slowly and whispered
with tears in her soft eyes, "yes."
She had found that last piece of herself in him; his yang to
her ying. She was a complete entity now, he had completed her as
readily as she had completed him. Together they were a whole and
together they were invincible. She knew there was nothing that they
could not do as a pair and as she shook her head in stunned disbelief she
could only smile. "No."
He looked at her
and asked, "no. You cannot come."
He
moaned as the reality of her words and could only repeat his plea,
"please."
She softly shook her head,
"no."
He moaned and she melted at the
sound. It was better than the serenade of any other animal singing
to a prospective mate. It was the sound of his submission and she
knew by the tone that he would obey, that his request for her control was
not a rushed decision that their tryst had been the catalyst for; it was
real and he would obey.
"I
want to beat you some more," she breathed huskily.
"Go bring me three items to beat you with. Surprise me"
He climbed from the bed and whispered, "okay." His voice
was gravely when he spoke the lone word and Collette enjoyed the pleading
tone.
She watched as he left the bedroom. She
waited patiently, wondering what he was going to bring to her. Her
hand danced over her extended clit, slowly masturbating while imagining
what items he would bring for his own misery. Was he choosing the
items carefully, trying to decide what would hurt the least? Or was he
instead just rushing through the house just racing to return to the
bedroom? She was curious and she knew she would ask.
He returned to the bedroom and returned with three different items for
Collette to use on his sore ass. In his hands he held a wooden spoon
from the kitchen; a flyswatter, thin and flimsy; and a large hairbrush
that she kept in the hallway bathroom. He held them to her and she
took the proffered items.
"Thank
you," she said. "Bend over, place your hands on the bed
and don't move."
He
simply
obeyed and Collette melted in desire. He was obeying her every
whim. He positioned himself at her command knowing that it would
lead to his pain and the fact aroused her. She watched him as he bent
forward and leaned against the bed, his ass bared for the paddles he had
delivered. She climbed from the bed carrying the three items he had
delivered into her arms and stood behind him, "tell me," she
said, "what were you thinking when you were looking for these
paddles?"
She watched him swallow heavily.
When he spoke his voice was a hoarse whisper, "I..." he paused,
grunted once and continued, "I wondered if it would hurt."
"Go on."
He continued, stammering occasionally,
"I went into the kitchen, looking for anything that you could ...beat
...beat me with. The first thing I saw was the meat tenderizer and I
dismissed that by both the menacing way the large block looked as well as
the disconcerting name." He laughed nervously and continued,
"I opened the drawer we keep the utensils in and found the wooden
spoon. It was small and I figured that it... it... it wouldn't hurt
too bad."
Collette purred.
"I continued looking for anything that you could use, weighing
items I found with my hands and imagining how painful it would be. I
found the flyswatter and remembered my mother spanking me with one when I
was a child and I remembered that it didn't hurt too badly." He
paused moisten his dry lips, "finally I found the hairbrush and with
the hollow feel to the back I figured that it wouldn't hurt too
much."
Collette moaned delightedly, "very
good."
He smiled at her nervously.
"Now," she said, "on the bed. Face down."
He obeyed.
"Spread your legs," she
commanded him.
Again he obeyed.
Collette set the hairbrush and flyswatter
on the bed and hefted the wooden spoon. "Thank me," she
commanded him. With that she swung the spoon and struck his naked
ass. The retort was sharp in the room, echoing loudly. Her
body shook in ecstasy at the sound of his wet breath being drawn through
clenched teeth.
"One," he breathed,
"thank you."
"Mistress." A
simple word.
"One. Thank you,
mistress," his acceptance spoke volumes.
He counted each of the twenty-five strokes that Collette had given to his naked
ass. She was dripping when she set the spoon down and picked up the
brush. "Count these as well," she breathed passionately.
She spanked his ass another twenty-five times with the hair brush and by
the time she finished her pussy was sopping and his ass was red. He
had tears in his eyes and his voice was strained as he finished counting,
"twenty-five. Thank you, mistress."
"You're welcome," she said. "Now, lay down on the
bed, face up."
He obeyed without hesitation.
Collette picked up the flyswatter and said, "I'm going to spank your cock
now." Her voice was throaty and full of passion, "I will only do
five. Try and take them all for me. Okay?"
He nodded weakly.
"Here
we go." With that she slapped his cock with the flyswatter. The
blow was light but his reaction was amazing. His hips lifted from
the bed and his hands involuntarily flew towards his crotch to protect his
penis. His moan was deep and full of agony, low and mournful. Collette
felt her body go weak at the sights and sounds of his pain and she
shuddered. "Can you handle another?" she barely squeaked
out.
He moaned and Collette purred. He shook side
to side and slowly, his breathing raspy and shallow gasps, like a fish
floundering out of water. His mouth opened and closed
wordlessly. He struggled to speak, want to say 'no more, please, no
more." He looked into her eyes and instead of saying 'no,"
he said, "yes."
"I love
you."
He looked at her. His crotch was on
fire, the pain radiating through his entire body. He could see the
passion in her eyes; could read the pleasure in her body as readily as he
could feel the pain in his. He struggled as he spoke, "thank
you, mistress. May I have another?"
Her body shook as a small orgasm shook through her body.
The sound of his submission that countered the obvious desire of his body
to run away screaming was music to her ears and her body responded.
She shook in pleasure and said, "yes," a pause as her pleasure
climbed, "you can."
She struck
his cock again. He coiled up into a fetal ball, shaking slightly as
the pain raced through his body. "No more. No more,"
he said, saliva dripping from his mouth. His hands were trapped
between his legs and he rocked painfully. "No more," he
croaked again.
She couldn't see his face
as it was buried against his chest. "No more," Collette said
tenderly. "You did wonderfully." Then, "thank
you."
He didn't hear her; he was trapped in a
world of pain and gradually decreasing suffering. His mouth was open
and he could feel his own spit on his chest. He knew he was
speaking, but he was unconscious of the words that were spilling from his
mouth. Was he asking for mercy or begging for more? He did not
know and he wondered briefly if he wanted to. If only I hadn't asked
for another, he thought.
If only.
*
* * * *
The lobby of the hotel was
well-lit and clean. A large rug sat in the middle of a large room
that was dominated by a large fireplace. A fire was burning and the
the sound crackled and shadows danced on the wall and floor of the
room. A long counter to her right was where customers of the hotel
would check-in. It was covered with flyers for the hotel chain and
two potted plants rested on either end of the long counter. It was
unmanned, the employee hidden away behind a closed door that led into
parts unknown.
Collette walked briskly past
the counter and turned left into a short hallway. She followed the
large brown signs that read simply, "elevator." She
pressed the button the call the car and the door opened immediately with a
single ding announcing the cars arrival. She entered, spun around
and pressed the number for the third floor.
She lowered her eyes, shook her head and whispered, "if
only." The past had been haunting her for years. She had
never been able to shake the memories that always appeared when she was
not expecting them. They snuck up on her like a kitten pouncing on
unsuspecting toes of their owners, and they darted away nearly as
quickly. She was no longer surprised when the memories came and
always saddened when they departed. They reminded her of happier
times and the melancholy that followed seemed to hover within her mind for
days following the brief respite into the past.
The door opened, two dings followed, and Collette raised her head.
Two separate signs pointed down
opposite corridors. Collette read the sign showing her which way to room
317 and she turned toward it. The carpeting on the floor was plush
and she bounced on it as she walked. Small sconces lined the
hallway, illuminating the walkway in a soft glow. Her head shifted
from side to side, scanning the room numbers until she found the room she
was seeking.
Collette pulled Mark's keycard from her
purse and the light on the door flashed green and a loud click announced
that the door was unlocked. Collette entered the room and found the
suitcase exactly where Mark had said it would be. She looked around
the room; at the bed, neatly made and the plane ticket showing Mark's
return flight to Chicago two days hence. She grabbed the tickets and
put them in Mark's suitcase.
Quickly she searched the
room for anything that may have belonged to Mark. She didn't find
anything out of the ordinary. Dropping the keycard on the bed, she
grabbed the suitcase, and left the room. Walking rapidly, her steps
silent on the carpeted hallway, she returned to the elevator.
And returning to her car, she was unmolested by any hotel employee.
Her visit to the hotel had gone unnoticed.
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